the "scenes".

it whores.

im angry.

it frustrates me.

fucking pouts.

complete contradictions.

cheap tricks......

do we love to be what we hate? do we turn the introspective blind eye when we do it ourselves?


So earlier on i got a little angry, while trawling through myspace, as i so often find myself.
Its just the women, the way that they exploit the tradition that women can change their minds about anything and not have to explain themselves.

the "I don't believe you should do that, its degrading to our sex" and then a while later, they do the pout, the flash of muff, the teasing nipple, the blatant sex.

but i'm calm now, an cannot think of a rational arguement for this, people are allowed to change their minds, or make it seem like they have changed their minds. i just wish i could know that there was thought behind the decision...there might very well be...we just cannot see it.

On another note, am performing in London Wednesday, and am fairly sure i'm going to soil myself with worry...silly i know.
on a good note, Andre seemed pleased and encouraged me to keep at it, which made me feel less nervous.

i'm going to do some sketchbook work tonight and draw, also i am missing james an awful lot, he has alot of work to do...

holy shit......


i got that show in london.


they called me up today and were like "we really want your piece to be in our show!"

and i was like o__o "rly?"


so yeah, awesome, its like a proper publicised show! in LONDON jeez im really excited. now to book my train tickets.

oh you can check it out at:

http://www.tescodisco.co.uk/main.asp

the show is the one on the right called "the dominatrix sleeps tonight"

man...im little nervous...its next week....they apologised for being late in confirming me but man...

also i got an interview with Mariska Majoor who is the ex-prostitute who founded the prostitution information centre in Amsterdam...that thats cool too!
Also all the Amsterdam preparations are going well, lots of interview requests sent and i also sent a request for an interview with the ministers of Women in the Labour government. that would be something.

all a little too good to be true!

ALSO! check out my photos, i got a few new ones up, mostly photo manipulations though!

so i've been writing letters and sending emails all this morning...keep putting off making that clench performance...i think it might make a better sort of week long piece, i was going to take the national exercise recommendations and replace regular exercise with pelvic florr muscle exercise...and record comfort levels and stress and such...maybe make a ...pie chart?


anyway, i sent this as a sort of letter template and just switched a few names and info around when sending to different people...



Hello,

My name is Polly Aplin, a practicing Artist in Cardiff, Wales. I am accumulating information for a book that is in pre-production. The project is concerned with women and what roles they play in today’s society, whether they feel free and independent and what culture changes have done to impact on their lives. The crux of the issue is sex, and how within the last few years the attitudes of sex and the applications of sex have changed, especially concerned with woman’s identity.

I am building a back catalogue of research before I tackle social experiments, and I want to speak to as many people who have knowledge of sexual and female history as possible.

I am primarily concerned with the UK and what impact the culture has here, but in order to gain perspective I wanted to visit Amsterdam and become involved in a community that has different, more relaxed views towards sex than the UK, and gradually build up a strong contextual basis for my study.


Reading through your website I was terribly excited about perhaps conducting a few interviews with the people that run this information centre.
I believe that speaking with maintainer(s) of the centre would prove very useful to my research.
My research leave to Amsterdam is from the 8th of May till the 11th (quite soon, i apologise but my leave was confirmed in the last few days)
If it is at all possible to schedule an informal interview i would be very pleased!

Thank you for your time

Polly Aplin



other than that im pretty sure i cut the inside of my mouth while eating dinner last night....now im not one to chew very well....i really should chew better....but while i was eating i swallowed and ouch, something dragged along the left side of my throat and its hurt and been sore since then.
we were ating crusty fresh bread...so it might have been a particularly sharp piece of crust....but since last night i've been a little paranoid that it was a HIDDEN RAZOR BLADE!!!!.....
or something like that...thats what i get for watching Derren Brown (magician guy who put some razor blades in mini roll cakes and got people to eat them and magic'd the blades away!)

anyway...should be working alot harder...but just...messing around really...

So i've been doing a bit of internet research for my up coming research trip to Amsterdam (8th till 11th of may)

so im trudging through all these websites about the first womens owned sex shop in amsterdam, the biggest live sex show theatre with an, and i quote "family atmosphere", and i find the very interesting prostitute information centre and hopefully, they will be happy to help me out with hooking me up with a few of the individual women that work in the sex windows.

and im horrified in the most strange way.

Shocked but excited about learning more about a community that works better than ours.
And im excited about the prospect of bringing some ideas back here to england that could help change attitudes.
And for the first time in a while, im ecstatic about the prospect of writing my book on the new waves of feminism.

i was sceptical at first, i thought well, going somewhere else is all well and good to gain broad knowledge, but im more about tackling the in-consistancies here in england, in remote communities, which are so hard to infiltrate because of their illegality.
But i really think that by working my way from open-minded communities to the more closed ones i can make some kind of difference and gain soe real perspective for my artistic practice.

Im fairly scared, amsterdam has its problems like any other community, because of their more tolerant sex and drug laws i believe they get more trouble with the extremes of these. i'm lead to believe there isn't a high rape rate, but i remember reading that they have trouble with the harder drug's being circulated.
i guess this makes sense only because the focus is shifted from the softer drugs due to legality and the harder usage is brought more into the light, sort of seesaw like.

I really hope some of the women are willing to be interviewd, and i'd -love- to take their portraits....or sit in on a session and...take notes(?!)

sometimes i think i may be about to bite off WAY more than i can chew with this ambition, but i hope something good will come of my research and book.

So i've been busy, making a installation, moving it about in the centre of town, taking pictures, thinking of a new installation, planning trips to amsterdam for research, getting measured for my graduation gown etc etc but i found time to apply for a show in london on the 25th of this month.....hopefully i'll get in, scary.

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Tescodisco proposal

Project title
“O more please”

Project Description
O more please is a revised version of a living installation I made late 2006 entitled “O please”.
The piece uses imagery gained from my research time with a practising dominatrix, glossy immaculate dress and exterior, with highly fetishlike themes.
The artist is a young woman; she is bent over presenting her behind. She is dressed in a short shiny black skirt and red high heels; the skirt only just shadows her exposed sex. Her upper half is covered from the waist up in thick heavy red material suggesting is there any more under the covering? Is she real? The artist remains fixed in this position for the entirety of the show.
This piece perpetuates a lad’s mag image of women, reducing the woman to body parts and costume, but encourages the audience to engage with the realities of this imagery, presenting them with a laboured representation on the part of the artist.

Artist Bio
Polly Aplin, in her final year of a Fine Art degree, tackles with female representation in the media and through various art projects, works to define feminism for her own.
Currently working on a series of works dedicated to conversation and information gathering on subjects surrounding morality of female activities, such as, women who strip, talking to a member of the public about the pro’s and con’s of stripping while I strip for them.
Artists statement available via website blog

Technical specification
For this piece I require the corner of a space, and a small piece of stage for me to bend over.
Preferably the space would be dark, with a single spotlight trained on my rear, although this can be sacrificed in case of space limitations.
I will provide my own:
Documenter and video camera
Tapes for recording on to (mini DV tape)
Velvet material for installation


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its a re-hashed version of a previous piece, but with a few different outcomes should some things happen. and possibly with an ending planned, where i actually make an action. but i need to brainstorm it first.

been reading lots of Psychopathia Sexualis, anyone whos remotly interested in sex or fetish or just interesting historys and ways of recoreding case studies should give this a little read.

in other news, my writer, Katie griffiths, has completed the prologue for our manga project over the summer, the prologue is posted on my Livejournal whic is my more illustration based journal.

http://magiccrackers.livejournal.com/

and also just a way of keeping up with my friends lives.....and being a member of weird communities...but i won't go into that.

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