today i had 3 appointments and one "online appointment"

i broadcast my cam and chat over a site where people who can find it and want to join and watch can. its description is " 12 day a young woman stays in a room on webcam for 24 hours" etc etc

so today i talke dto a guy from california, and it was really interesting because he began to tell me about himself and his problems, and it struck me how this person has no idea who i really am but feels comfortable talking about himself to me.

of course theres the possibilty that he could of been lying, but it struck me today how trusting people can be with people they may not know, who are essentially just faces and names on the internet.

i've had difficuly talking with my guests today, and feel like i am taking a step backwards in a way with my theory, im discovering more problems than i am solutions, but i am gathering a really good idea of what people would think and feel should differences be made.

so no major revelations today other than the fact that most things are flawed and difficult to try to work out and the possibility of change is almost so far out of reach that it saddens me.

also today i've hurt my back somehow and im severly missing outside and normal contact with people, as well as my privacy, even tough i never know whos watching me i always feel like somebody could be watching me, and my behavious changes accordingly.

sleep for tonight as i've got alot to do tommorow.