had a very difficuly day today, after yesterday i was feeling drained to the point where i'd taken many steps back in my thinking.

things only slightly im proved today, i had one appointments which was very good, but numerous online appointments that were grating, enlightening and bizarre. all of which will feature in the presentation of my research during the public gallery show.

deterioration of my "spirit" and general fatigue has gotten gradually worse today, alothough i've picked up after this evening with a somewht re-newed energy to carry on dispite feeling like 7 more days are going to be hellish.

so theory wise i've decided that webcam's are good in the way that they don't physically hurt either party involved, but the emotional and verbal abuse can penetrate deeper should it get to you, with a hardened individual i believe this abuse could be brushed off of even just filtered out, so thats why i thought that more information should be avalible for girls (and men) when signing up for webcam work, or alternativly they should be given some form of training/talk to prepare themselves for what could happen. based on personality, as long as one was a strong enough person to take the verbal abuse and allow it not to harm them it would be fine.
another harmful factor could be the ditatchment from reality that the "punters" or people who use the webcam service could eventually fall victim to, this again would hopefully be avoided with education from teenage years upwards on realities and non-realities, coupled with wide edcuation in other sexual activies.

the real question is how to go about educating in a way that isn't intrusive and that would be beneficial.

as of yet i have no appointments tommorow so im going to spend the better part of the day taking pictures and personal reflection. i'm going to try an action tommorow, which i will record and assess afterwards.