not a good day at all.

i had no guests today that wanted to come to speak to me and i began to really feel the toll of being on cam and dealing with anonymus people that are very demading and very rude.

i found out what the average wage for a girl working on camera per week is, $300.

but you have to build a good fanbase before you can start earning really good money.

it makes me a little sick in a way because the information on the sites where you sugn up to become a webcam model give VERY limited information.

earn $1000's!
Huge cash prizes for the best webcam model!
easy money from home!

But i guess that how they get their models, if it diodn't sound appealing, nobody would want to do it.
i keep getting really angry with it, and how it makes you feel, but then i keep thinking back to the fact that many jobs, should you not enjoy them could be this un-satisfying, and if you let it, degrading.

i mean take somebody whos really in support of local buissiness's, i imagine they would feel fairly similar if they then went to work for a big multinational corporation.

sometimes we just cannot get past the sex.

its only if it bothers you or if you let it bother you. that's why the faint of heart and weak of mind could not really cope with this job, you have to have alot of confidence and be very comfortable with your own body, i guess to the extent that you don't feel it is being exploited, or you can detatch yourself from it completly and just do your job.