I had no vistors today, but some interesting conversations over the web, with one man from india and a few people from the gallery where this is being primarily broadcast.

another man with an alias "Wolf" got fairly angry with me because i did not reply to him straight away after asking me a question. If this is what you do day in day out i wonder now, if verbal anger through a chat and voice system are as potent as the real physical thing, or even just to a lesser extent.
to what extent then can the webcam models detatch themselves from real emotions and typed emotions.
and how do they maask and hide their boredom/fatigue. do they even feel the need to?


i must admit i've become quite adept at handling my actions around the webcam, finding blind spots and such to do things, yet still sometimes i forget i am on camera and my expressions give away what i am thinking or doing.

with each lovely sunny day i find myself getting more and more frustrated that i cannot be outside in order to enjoy the sun, and i have noticed even though i get adquate sleep, perhaps even more sleep than i need, i have developed very large bags under my eyes, perhaps its from the effort/stress of my position, but i don't know. all i know is that i am getting good amounts of sleep and yet i'm always tired and getting more grouchy, i have developed my nervous rash i often get and my skin doesn't seem to be too healthy.
all a by product of not enough outside exercise i think, i really am going to just spend most of my "free" time outside when i get out.